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Haven't blogged in a while, I suppose maybe I should do a little bit of
scribbling. I cheated on EJ in January w Jeromy, which was totally not
cool. It broke us both in the end. I hated Jeromy afterwards, the 2nd
time, like with Rusty. I realized I was in love with EJ and that I
fucked up hxc. He was leaving for a few days to go party in Panana and
so he fucked me 11x n I still did it a few hours after he left. I todl
him not to worry, that even if I'd wanted to I couldn't bc I was so
sore, turns out, tiny penises don't hurt you at all. So he got
shitfaced to get back at me. Came down here drunk as fuck, passed out
on the bathroom floor, I practically had to drag him to the bed. It
took me until he was semi-sober to change his pukey shirt. Whakkit
came and fucked with him. EJ proved to be the most bipolar thing I've
seen in my life... He would be saying how he thought he was gonna die
and cried and told me to hold him and not let him die n all that shit
and then moments later talking about how he can't wait to die and how
excited he'll be to be in a coffin in the ground dead n a bunch of
other fucked up shit. It was fucked up. He still hasn't gotten over
the Jeromy thing, 2 months later, he says he's forgiven me; But he
hasn't forgiven me any more than I'vce forgiven Chris and Lisa about
the past. He always says he's gonna get revenge somehow someday. Says
he could fuck his shit up cuz he has his social security card n stuff.
Had his birth certificate, but gave it back. Earlier he said soemthing
about fighting him n how he doesn't care if his bones get broken or he
dies bc that doesn't matter. I don't like it. I think we should just
fucking disapear. Something..
I got a Prenatal Listening System, to hear the baby's heartbeat...
I can record onto the comp, save files, make CDs, whatever... I dunno
if there's a mic jack though. I'll figure it out. We're gonna listen
to it together, EJ and I, every Friday, see how it gets stronger and
louder n stuff. In a few weeks I'll try to record it...
We're lookin at a house to buy. Cuz the dude came by the other day
and we were s'poised tyo be out of here over a month ago... But we're
not...
This
is the place we're trying to get But that's only if we get
the highest bid...
Rochelle would have the upstairs, minus on BR, I'd have a br downstairs
and MaMa would have a fireplace in hers. A special room for the flower
shop, and a big yard for Pookie and Ryleigh to play in. A room for a
Jacuzzi. 2 bathrooms. Ugly colors though. My room's going to be pink
and black vertical stripes with a black ceiling with pink sqaure
dividers and pink handprints inside. I want 6 inch thick stripes
though, no more. I can't do it though on account of I can't be near
paitn fumes.
I'm so tired. In feel listless. Dead. Living dead. EJ's
visiting his mother. Rochelle Jared and Ryleigh went to the mall.
Mama's in her room, prolly about to fall asleep. And what do I do? I
read. I'm on my 5th book in a month. 3 Dean Koontz, 1 Joe Hill, now
Paulina Simmons, it's the thickest. Couple inches.
It's hot in here and I've been sick the last couple weeks. I'm
getting the fuck outta this hot ass room. I've been having heat
flashes or the chills lately n I'm sick of being sick! Time for my
prenatal vitamin and to go lay down.
♥♥♥
The Rissa
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