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and then...

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 05:31:41 GMT

So a lot of shit has gone down lately. I moved out of Jackson because I couldn't take the bullshit anymore. I finally admitted to Heather and EJ about what happened with Ryan and what didn't. A week or two after moving out of there I met this kid named Eric. He's Sean's cousin and they were texting and showed me his picture and asked if I wanted to meet him. He was gorgeous so of course I agreed. The next day we went to WalMart and met up with him. So we're all wandering around Wallyworld, then Amanda made Eric hold Isaac which made me madd nervous. He was really good w him though. Well we were all looking at jewelry n shit and this guy walks up to us and was like u guys r crazy, I can't recall what it was we were doing though--I think I was beating up Sean. Well then he was like oh weren't u with EJ and I froze and I was like who the fuck're u?!?! Ya know, I thought it was Sean's friend or something but NOBODY knew who he was! Apparently he had seen my MySpace which freaked me out, and then he told me he was EJ's cousin and I was like EJ doesn't have any cousins up here... Then he said they used to be before the divorce. I told EJ and Sarah about that n neither one knows who the fuck that dude was... Well anyway, that night we come back, I had caught a buzz and then they kept asking us if we were going out n we were saying no. So then they were like do u like him do u like her and so they were like well then go out and I was like he didn't ask me. Then they got on his ass to ask and he didn't want to while I was drunk n not in the right state to make decisions so I pretended to be sober for 5 minutes and agreed. Then Sean pissed me off n his behind Amanda so I couldn't kill him and then told me if I kissed Eric whatever many times I could beat him up without him running away or defending himself. I agreed after a moment's hesitation and kissed the kid. Isaac was sleeping n we got crunk. I love Svedka && Soda haha. At some point in my wonderful buzz-induced mood swing I was talking to Amanda n Eric interrupted to say something to Sean and I guess I shoved him on the floor and punched him in the ribs and yelled at him not to interrupt my woman ever again... Yeah... bad... I remember the ribs and no interruption bit but barely. I'd forgotten till Manna reminded me. Well anywho, after a bit Amanda n Sean went to bed like wussies and then Eric and I pulled an all-nighter. Had sex a couple times and hung out. It lasted 3 weeks. In which time he made me fall in love with him and told me he loved me. Pathetic but possible... Another night we were at Wallyworld lookin at jewelry there was a ring that said DAD in ig letters n he said he was gonna but it n put it on his middle finger n punch EJ in the head n shit. A lie. One of the nights he was here Isaac was sick and puked like 4 times or some shit and wouldn't sleep unless he was with someone so I put him between us on the loveseat and i guess I rolled over like right after I fell asleep and Eric held him throughout the rest of the night. Then the rat bastard was cheating on me with Carley n told me he was grounded to the house! Ugh >.< Told her that he dumped me when I guess he did but only for 4 seconds n then took it back so it's stupid. He wanted some other bitch so he was gonna dump me, told me, then changed his mind n got mad anytime I brought it up. Well he told carley we were broken up, but my MySpace and MyYearbook were still saying we were together n shit. So she asked me n I told her we were n I got on his myyearbook n checked it all out and his myspace and then I called him n dumped him ove rhis mama's answering machine. So now I hate the pizza faced asshole. And his profile says he never cheated on me n I'm just tryna ruin his life n make him miserable. He did admit everything to Carley though eventually and now I guess is being an asshole to her. It's like the 11th time he's cheated on her I guess. He's a dirtbag. That's okay though, cuz I gots a secret, I cheated on him too! Now don't get me wrong, I didn't go fuck EJ. All I did was kiss him. So it's not even nearrr even but fuck it it's over. So then a few days after that EJ came back and was like I told u so and I was like fuck u. Then he wanted me back and then I took off to go camping w Sean, Amanda, Tara, Dustin n their friend Chris. Well that was the biggest mistake of my life. I ended up taking the Chris kid's virginity and he was all attached to me n shit and I was just like ugh get away but I didn't wanna be mean to him. He was really fat, which isn't my style, I hate fat boys. And I think he was autistic. He sucked on his ring finger and smelled it for like 2 hrs...and played with his boobs a lot.. and just pretty much grossed me out. Well EJ came back and he was pissed off at me and all that jazz but forgave me and then was being a dick to Chris which is fine w me cuz I didn't like him anyways. Thennnn the fucker stayed the night cuz he was stranded from getting arrested. Speaking of that.... first, flashback to WalMart, it's late at night and Bobbi needs pads... Me, Manna, Sean and her go to the store. As soon as we get in the feminine care aisle, Amanda throws a box of tampons at sean who in turns starts throwing pads. I got hit in the head w a case of 'em so I threw some back at him. Then he kicked one and the plastic split and pads spilled into the main aisle. Manna books it, employee sees it and freaks out. Then we go cash out n get in the jeep. Then the cops come. Officer was a bitch. She looked at Sean [I had just given him snakebites and Amanda one bite] and she was like you think u look cool with those in ur lip it makes me think ur a stupid punk or some shit like that. Then to Chris' arrest. We stayed the night down at the gorge, I had a big fat black marker in my purse and decided to graffiti the pavilion that was less than 2 yrs old. So then Amanda n Tara n Dustin do it, too. It got outta hand and was a big deal. Cops came cuz fuckers were partying the next night [I was at home] and fireworks n guns n shit, so they saw it and gave out tickets. They kept me out of it and saved me a $200 fine and court trip. Chris had no way to prove who he was n was from outta state so they booked him. Then the other 4 came n got me n we went n bleached it, Dustin n Sean took an hour to get the fucking water so we did it w straight bleach and had it all done before they got back. And the night I did stay down there with them, fuckin there was like wolves or some shit. Scary. Well I was talking to EJ at the end of the driveway n shti and chris was released and came to my fucking house. Like wtf I don't even know u rly and this is where u go. Well thats when EJ started tweakin. He wouldn't take Isaac, he left, came back w a knife and was being crazy. He called down. I agreed to let him have me and Chris wouldn't accept that. He kept tryna hold my hand n shit no matter how many times I told him no! I made his ass sleep on a tiny couch on the porch on a cold ass night and was a bitch all day before that annnnnd he STILL the next day was tryna hold my hand n shit. Well then he had to leave. And he did. Then he went about his deaf basketball scam and started makin money and I haven't heard from anyone since. I'm now back with EJ, mostly happy, he still throws tantrums though. He just moved in w his mom today. Her n Don came to town n picked him up n they got to see Isaac. Who btw started walking just a few short days after his birthday =] I skipped GED on Monday but at least I got my form done so I can take the actual test finally. I'm obsessed w Twilight now. I only started reading it to piss Eric off bc he said he wouldn't break up w me n he did n I said I wouldn't read the damn books so I did. I read the first 3 within 2 weeks and I've been waiting 2 days for Breaking Dawn. Mother's co-workers aren't givin it up yet dammit. I'll prolly finish it before Amanda. Then again I'll read for hours straight and she actually has a job n stuffs where she can't exactly do that. I like it. I bought a zippo-like lighter off ebay w Edward n Bella on it. I watched the trailers for Twilight and New Moon on MySpace earlier and they look like rly poor acting quality. And the dude that plays Edward--extremely unappealing. I'm startin to get madd tired now =[ Sucks, I'm always tired.

Julyyy

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 20:01:13 GMT

So I'm learning to change. Now that I moved away from EJ it's less stressful, less miserable. No misery at all here in fact.

That little incident a week or whenever ago with my leg was pointless.

Now it's okies.

I was green contact lenses, they're like $30. I want green, I'm so over blue.

I think I want to make a peach pie too. Mother spent like $10 on one earlier n it was crap compared to the cost and what I could make. I just need the ingredients n I'll do that shit.

I'm not pissed off all the time now at least. I mean I'm always craving to lay w EJ but once every week or whatever I guess can work, most ppl fuck that infrequently, right?

We don't fight as much either.

Chelle && Jared && Ryleigh just left a lil bit ago for VA but maybve FL they don't know where they'll end up lol.

Isaac cries at me n stresses me out more often, but it's still not as bad as before.

His schedule's better, too. At least last night it was haha. He went to bed at like 11:30 or somethin.

My knee's rly fucked up. Idk what's wrong w it, I twisted it wrong tryna do some kinky shit.

Isaac's gonna be a year old in 5 days!

A Couple Months Later

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 21:44:11 GMT

Haven't blogged in a while, I suppose maybe I should do a little bit of scribbling. I cheated on EJ in January w Jeromy, which was totally not cool. It broke us both in the end. I hated Jeromy afterwards, the 2nd time, like with Rusty. I realized I was in love with EJ and that I fucked up hxc. He was leaving for a few days to go party in Panana and so he fucked me 11x n I still did it a few hours after he left. I todl him not to worry, that even if I'd wanted to I couldn't bc I was so sore, turns out, tiny penises don't hurt you at all. So he got shitfaced to get back at me. Came down here drunk as fuck, passed out on the bathroom floor, I practically had to drag him to the bed. It took me until he was semi-sober to change his pukey shirt. Whakkit came and fucked with him. EJ proved to be the most bipolar thing I've seen in my life... He would be saying how he thought he was gonna die and cried and told me to hold him and not let him die n all that shit and then moments later talking about how he can't wait to die and how excited he'll be to be in a coffin in the ground dead n a bunch of other fucked up shit. It was fucked up. He still hasn't gotten over the Jeromy thing, 2 months later, he says he's forgiven me; But he hasn't forgiven me any more than I'vce forgiven Chris and Lisa about the past. He always says he's gonna get revenge somehow someday. Says he could fuck his shit up cuz he has his social security card n stuff. Had his birth certificate, but gave it back. Earlier he said soemthing about fighting him n how he doesn't care if his bones get broken or he dies bc that doesn't matter. I don't like it. I think we should just fucking disapear. Something.. I got a Prenatal Listening System, to hear the baby's heartbeat... I can record onto the comp, save files, make CDs, whatever... I dunno if there's a mic jack though. I'll figure it out. We're gonna listen to it together, EJ and I, every Friday, see how it gets stronger and louder n stuff. In a few weeks I'll try to record it... We're lookin at a house to buy. Cuz the dude came by the other day and we were s'poised tyo be out of here over a month ago... But we're not... This is the place we're trying to get But that's only if we get the highest bid... Rochelle would have the upstairs, minus on BR, I'd have a br downstairs and MaMa would have a fireplace in hers. A special room for the flower shop, and a big yard for Pookie and Ryleigh to play in. A room for a Jacuzzi. 2 bathrooms. Ugly colors though. My room's going to be pink and black vertical stripes with a black ceiling with pink sqaure dividers and pink handprints inside. I want 6 inch thick stripes though, no more. I can't do it though on account of I can't be near paitn fumes. I'm so tired. In feel listless. Dead. Living dead. EJ's visiting his mother. Rochelle Jared and Ryleigh went to the mall. Mama's in her room, prolly about to fall asleep. And what do I do? I read. I'm on my 5th book in a month. 3 Dean Koontz, 1 Joe Hill, now Paulina Simmons, it's the thickest. Couple inches. It's hot in here and I've been sick the last couple weeks. I'm getting the fuck outta this hot ass room. I've been having heat flashes or the chills lately n I'm sick of being sick! Time for my prenatal vitamin and to go lay down. ♥♥♥ The Rissa

Things have calmed down

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 01:03:07 GMT

quite a bit I'd say.
After my spazzing out mode, I went upstairs n woke my mom up n talked calmly with her about why I was upset about the flower shop thing, but also how I understood why she made the purchase n thought it was a good thing to do, and it is if it succeeds.
Then I told her about when I was talking to Crystal last night n getting me all set up to live in the apartment building uptown where she does. She said I have to wait till next month after xmas n shit. The only reason I'd even agree to it would be because she's paying my security deposit stuffs. Maybe my down payment, too? I'm gonna be living off my social security check, which is $450.00. But my mom's still paying my cell phone so w/e my bill is the month before, should be $80-$90, she'll subtract it when she cashes the check and give me the rest so that leaves me about $370, minus $260 for rent, which is $110 to live off. Plus ya gotta figure in food costs, but I'm gonna get WIC, Medicaid, and foodstamps so I can afford the save the $100's leftovers every month to get my permit, my car fixed [in time], and a portable dvd player. I could prolly get the dvd player for xmas though along w my ps2 cuz they're only like $30 at dollar general. But if the flower shop thing works, she wants to sublet at mel's bakery uptown, then i'll have a job to save up for the car and the kid n everything and won't need the car to get there cuz it's like not even 100 yrds away lol. But I don't even know if I'll get the apartment because I'm only 16 n stuffs but Crystal said to list her as a reference and explain everything n she might let me ya know. The only problems I'd have is that there are no windows which isn't really that big of a deal I guess but w/e, a dude died there but I want a priest to come bless the house beforehand if I get the apartment, EJ will be right across the hall from me in his apt, annnnd if I do the application and get the apartment this month, I can't move in till next month n she might give it to somebody else, or the same thing if I was to wait until next month to do the application. There's still an apt out back but it's $600/month or some shit that I can't afford to do. Shit, if I had $600 to blow on rent I'd want EJ's old apartment, that shit was huge. Oh, another big factor... Pookie. Crystal said as far as dogs go she thinks as long as they're small and neutered it's ok to have 'em but she's not entirely sure, which I hope that is the case bc if not, I either have to get rid of him or find somewhere else or stay here andddd I don't want to do any of those things. Right after my mommy told Rochelle, she came upstairs all fake as sin sweetypie act shit "hi baby sister, I made u french toast" I didn't want it, the smell made me nauseated and I was busy taking nailpolish off for an hour. She doesn't think I'll be able to do it and I'll be making Mom buy me shit n just living up there. I mean yeah, I'm gonna do my laundry here probably, but that's it bc I'm gonna make it on my fucking own.

Amanda's coming over 2night n she's gonna do my nails french tip for me, bc I really suck at that shit haha. She and Tara died their hair, and Justin 2, yesterday. Tara did hers black and then did red highlights, which every1 knows u can't cover black dye to easily, but yeah so hers barely shows and I haven't seen Amanda's hair yet. They sent me a pic of Justin, but it's like when I did Texas' it's kinda pink but u don't really notice the color difference at all.

Rochelle's going out tonight, so Mother's watcing Ryleigh.

I feel like I've been sleeping all day, but I only slept like 5 or 6 hours. I woke up like 7 times though. Tex woke me up 2 or 3 times but left shortly after and even left me some Newports haha. Well, I feel like puking. Goodbye!

niggerbitchprickassshit

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 06:38:31 GMT

K, so I'm super pissed off right now. Amanda n Tara hugn out today, and just like last weekend, didn't come see me. So that kinda pissed me off but w/e.
Fuckin Rochelle's been pissing me fof to no motherfucking end lately. She's a fucking total cunt and then 10 minutes later acts like nothing hapenned and wants me to fucking do something for her, fuck that. Dumb btich. I fucking hate her.
She's almost 19 and won't move the fuck out. And Mother doesn't want her to move out until she's fuckin ready. Fuck 'em both. I fucking hate it. If she doesn't fuckin get her shit together or move out, I'll fuckin leave. And if I do, I'm not fucking coming back, they can go fuck themselves. No Ryleigh, u dont' have any aunts. No Trish, u only have one daughter.
You wnat the truth bitches?
Ryleigh's kinda dumb. She tried ccrawling down the stairs this morning, she almost ate a hydrocodone the other day, she got "stuck" between the chair and the keyboard yesterday and started crying, she barely hardly walks and even Kelly's baby walks and she's over a month younger.
Rochelle's a spoiled bitch. Her and Mother go out shopping frequently and I get ntohing while they buy tons of shit for themselves. I want to fucking set her mattress on fire while she sleeps and to smash everything in the fucking house with a baseball bat. She just spent $50 on pictures, plus shopping today. Mother spent $75 on a fucking poster that costs $40 plus $25 on a painting and then some other shit. Ya wanna know what I got? Cranberry juice and soda, which my fucking mother stole from me. Slippers that fucking smelled funny. nasty ass cereal, thast's pretty much it yeah. Oh, and fake nails, whoop-dee-fucking-doo. Fuck that. Then when Pookie shits in Rochelle's room and chews her underwear I get bitched at when it's not his fault c they left the door open and they know if they do that he'll go in there and do that shit.
She fuckin bought a flower shop and didn't even fucking consult me. That's fucked up, she took out a loan and did it and didn't even say shit until after the fact. She still hasn't called the doctors to sort shit out so I can go get my prenatals n shit.
Tara just called me n I talked to her for a bit but then Crystal got on the phone n I was talking to her for a while. She doesn't like Rochelle either cuz they got into a fight, Idk y but yeah, Rochelle said she's a welfare and poor and was talking shit n Crystal's not on welfare, they may not have a lot fo money but that's bc she's not living off her mother like Rochelle is. She told me that if she was Josh she'd go into court and tell them about how he walked in on Ryleigh chewing on a shaving razor, which did happen. She also said that I could stay with her if I needed to cuz I'm like her little sister, which is great cuz se's awesome ya know and it's a lot closer than Michigan... but they can't have dogs up there i,e,. Pookie and if I left him here, they'd replace him. I wanna just fucking disappear for a week n not tell 'em I'm leaving or where I am n have ppl call here lookin for me n sayin they dunno where I am and how worried they are. Then fuckin come home w a fake black eye ro something. But I'm talking to Tara n I want a cigarette n tot ake Pookie outn so I'll rant more later.

and now

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 00:33:10 GMT

K so lets go in order if we can, and if my phone doesn't die as i do this. i told ej i was done w him, tried goin after eric but ended up w gabe a week later n started fuckin the next day which isnt as slutty as it sounds cuz i lost my virginity to him n figured we would b 2gether a while. our 1 wk anniversary he dumped me. the next day he was goin out w star. hes spending the next wk w her n i hate it. i found out i was pregnant n its either his or ejs. Ej hasnt been down here since i told him in person and gabes been here almost every day n he doesnt even think its his. fuckin chinzilla started up her bullshit again bc she has no social life n cant stay the fuck off my profile, so i called the cops on the dumb bitch. she or 1 of her lil buddies contacts me, she gets arrested. then u have tex get arrested on the 10th bc stephanies a dumb lying bitch that needs to get her ass whooped. which imma do if i c that bitch in town cuz she was goin around the school talkin shit sayin tex beat and raped her and that i was pregnant-bi i even took either test, n that when tex lived here he ate me out n we fucked n i was like wtf and then i saw notes she wrote eric callin me a slut so yeah her brothers a cop or not. lemme see that walking std ad campaign. anywho, i need to go to dr. burkes office between 4 n 5 to take 1 of their pregnancy tests so ej n bobby can stfu about me not bn pregnant n shit. anyways im fuckin cold n yeah. eric stayed here last and i fucked w him hxc haha cuz he told me y he doesnt like his leg bn rubbed n h kept doin it then he was like yeah ik thats all u want from me so i beat his ass, well i bruised the hell outta his arm n kneecap at least. then i went to bed n idk where he went then amanda n sean n gabe eric n tex all skipped school together and so i hung out w then earlier n then sean got grounded til new years n amanda, tex, me, gabe, n the kids went to the park. aaron called amanda a fat bitch so tex n gabe took off to go his house. before that tho, i went over to the playground to fuck w gabe and nate spit in my fuckin face assination style n i fuckin started crying after i yelled fucker n started walkin to the car. so amanda spit a big ass loogie in his face bc he knows aetter than to spit around ppl. but anyways next thing we know erics mom called us flippin shit cuz he promised no more bs at her house n that aaron called the cops n made it out like tex beat the hell out of him. so we drove around lookin 4 'em and wasted precious gas n then when we called erics mom 2 c wtf happened they were all there so we went down there to save his ass and told him bout the cops but i guess the deal w that was they unplugged the phone b4 aaron got through n shit but we took him anyways. then amanda brought me home n i made her a myxer account n sent her like 30 ringtones or whatever their daily limit is and i have like 150 ringtones now haha crazy i got my cell changed too n shit n im gonna go do laundry now <333
^^^That was the 19th^^^
and as a corrective note, EJ did come down last night and asked for a cigarette n I told him no n he left right after bc he's a user asshole.

Here's todays:
I woke up, pissed off, cuz Rochelle kicked me off the fucking couch. So I slept in my mommy's bed n Eric was in mine. The later he left and I woke up, boiling hot cuz the heater, shut it off n opened the window. Then Amanda n Crystal called me to pick me up so I took a shower n stuffs then we went to Dr. Burke's office to take the pregnancy test but they wouldn't admit me for it bc something was terminated 10 years ago n my mom needs to sort that bullshit out so I can go there. Then we went to Amandas' for a lil then we went to Quality to buy thanksgiving ingredients. I went to buy soymilk n realized I lost my mom's card so I was tweaking shit lookin for it, called her n told her to call the bank to cancel it n shit then we found it in Amanda's car so she had to call the bank back n it was all peachy. Then we went to the atm at Wilson Farms got $20 went to McDonalds and I bought a 9, a McFlurry w M&M n oreo in it, and a alrge chocolate milkshake haha $13. First thing I ate all day n the first thing I had from there in over a year. Then I gave Amanda $5 in gas n we went back to her house and chopped nuts for like 45 minutes to make Robert Redford cake. Then we went n picked up Heidi in Ripley n I called Will n I was like bitch guess where I am haha. He tried gettin me to come see him n I was like ummm no I'll pass thanks. So then we stopped back at McDonalds so Amanda n Heidi could get some n I could get somethin to drink at Wilson Farms. So I went there and they went to the driv-thru. Well it took me forever to decide, but I got two strawberry kiwi SoBe Life waters, $3. Then I was standing outside for like ever freezing in the pouring rain waiting for them. Then they show up n we come back to Mayville. They drop me off n Chelle told me that I had just missed Eric n so I was like well w/e. Then when he called me later I was like wtf did ur brother say cuz earlier Tex called n said Aaron was talkin shit. Well apparently I'm a fat fuckin soemthing bitch and that Eric punched him in the back for it, and for tripping him. Then he came downstairs cuz I was like yeah whatever. When I came down like 20 minutes later he was sitting on his ass watching tv, as usual. He doesn't have tv so when he's here or Texs' he's obsessed with it I guess.
I broke up with Allie sort of through a text message earlier.
Told her we should just be friends till she gets back from modeling school.
My tummy hurts, I think I hafta poo but I don't want to.

Imma Gangzturr

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 07:56:35 GMT

So I just got back from Kwik Fill. Yeah, went over there like a couple hours ago to buy cheese for my Ghettoroni cuz I ran out which btw I got bitched the fuck out for by Mother. Omfg I was pissed. I was listening to Tin's profile song and it was really loud I guess and it woke her up n she was like maybe that's a little loud n I was like maybe I need money. So I guess I sounded snotty when I said it so she got all fuckin pissed off n shit and I'm like dude wtf ever ya know fuck u. So I told her y I needed money, bc I ran outta cheese, a whole block haha bc I made the entire bag of fuckin noodles. Yeah, apparently, a dipshit move but hey whatever.
So she gives me $4 and bitches her ass off n goes upstairs. Well I go over w Tex and I was like $3.59 for cheese?! Fuck that. So I gave her a dollar n pretended it was a 5, but she didn't give me change back. Then I did the same thing w a $1.59 chocolate milk haha. Plus, I gave her a dollar for 4 cigarettes so I made out like a bandit I was like dude, fuck it, ur always short anyways ya know. Turns out though, she was using her money to pay my extra shit, which I felt kinda bad for.
But other than that shit, we ran around like immature kids in between their flirting and kissing, blagh haha. There's a wheely chair and I went to slide down the lil hallway w it. Didn't pan out as well as I'd hoped. I fuckin flipped the thing, landed on my lighter and everything else in my pockets, fuckin had some plastic thing fall on me. It was still awesome. There was a bunch of drunk dudes in there b4 that though and the one bought a bunch of shit, went to pay and the other was like no and they argued over it for a while and the fuckin guy took his card so he couldn't pay then made the dude miss his ride waiting for him to finish texting and pay for the shit. The guy was like u made me miss my ride and he's like I still have my car and the other dude was like ea but ur gettin booty I'm not n he was like no I'm not i'm tellin the bitch to go fuck herself right now and then a lil while later he was like all women are whores and looked at me n was like except u and my response was and her, while pointing to Tara. Yeah , except us. So another dude comes in and wanted a sub n she wouldn't make him one so but then she did when he came back then he forgot bread and came back again. I was like dude u should give me some of ur money and he was like how old're u and I was like 16 and he was like oh I got a card in my car gimme a call in a couple years, he was like 35 haha. It was an amusing 15 minutes though. Some drunk bitch, we run into her all the time shitfaced over there haha, was hitting on Tara she was like I love u, give me a hug.

Earlier though before that right. Hanging out w EJ, Eric, Brock and Tex. EJ wouldn't hold my fucking hand, which totally hurt my feelings. So I'm like wtf is he ashamed of me now. He tried sayin Brock's weird and acts weird n shit n aws using that as an excuse and I was like wtf ever man fuck u. So I was bn a bitch. Then when we all went to Kwik Fill when Tara had to go to work n shit fuckin I saw Teddy and I was like like Teddy n he was like hold on and I was like FUCK YOU! When he came back out I started yellin it again. So now he's mad at me for bn mad at him over a cigarette bc he gave 5 out b4 I got there. So fuckin what, that wasn't to me and grrr it's all fuckin stupid. So whatever man fuck it let him b mad. I don't even care. Then yeah Amanda n Heidi came down, they showed up right after we got over there n shit and Amanda bought me an energy drink to match her and Heidi's drinks and we're all labeling them, mine was normal and their tabs were turned in seperate directions. Amanda spit in hers and dumped it into Heidis and yeah. Then Jen pulled in and Amanda was like That's my sister! and threw Heidi's drink on the ground when it fell off the newspaper machine thingy and ran. That dented the shit out of it and spilled quite a bit as well haha. It was definately amusing though. Right after I opened mine Pookie fuckin ran, pulling at my wrist, causing me to spill it. That pissed me offffff. He looks cute as hell though. Mother bought him a lil unibomber jacket today, he looks badass in it =^.^=
Rochelle wanted to get him a pink outfit instead and Mama wouldn't let her. I'd make him wear pink, he's bisexual anyway ya know.
So yeah, EJ wouldn't hold my hand and I was texting Amanda, who btw was less than 5 feet away from me haha. So we're talking about it n shit ya know, and I told her how I think he's ashamed and everybody made a big fuckin deal out of it, not really, but more than enough. Cuz she was liek are u ashamed of her n he was like no so then she was like well blah blah blah just using her blah blah blah n he was like no I'm not. Idk, I thought I liked him, but if he's different when ppl r around than when it's just us and a couple others, and he's gonna be a jerk, then no, I'm not continuing our relationship, hah yes it's a sexual relationship, and just that. It's more, but it's not.
Ugh, so eventually he was like fuck it and held my hand when I whined and held it out [I have my own body language ^_^]
Then we were hodling hands walking back here before that texting n shit when Amanda drove her car over from KFill and ya know I was all yay but as soon as we got to the Lakeview sign and he saw ppl standing by their vehicular devices, he let go and said he was gonna sneeze, which he never did or even did the almost sneezing thing either. I was pissed. That's when I started complaining to Amanda.
So everyone got on his shit about it a lil n he finally was like w/e n just did it. So when we were on our way back from KFill again, well him n Tex were, we just went to the end of the parking lot bc I heard Teenagers scare the livin shit outta me <3 and I was singing and la-dee-da-ing to Lithium by Evanescence n everyone was at the hammock except us two and he was like what're u doing and I was like Lithium, Evanescence ^_^ and did kissy lips n got a kiss. Yay. So we were up there and I was texting Amanda n I was like I bet if I tried, he won't gimme a kiss so she was liek try to. So I did, and got one, but she missed it n so she was like do it again bc she wanted to see ya know so I did and he wouldn't. Then he chucked Tex's lighter and pissed him off bc he couldn't find it, even tho he did but it was my lighter and not his and they were using his and blah blah blah. so he got kicked outta the circle which I think was unjust since Tex hit him in the nuts anyway. Then Tex wouldn't let 'im have anymore gum and he gave me a full pack for lettin him use my cell to call KF and I took 2 pieces and gave the rest to EJ ya know cuz I'm sweet like that. I did that the other night with some fuckin crunch bar shit that Eric had. I pretended to eat it all but really took one bite n put it in my pocket and then gave it to EJ.
I really really like him but sometimes he's such a fuckin jerk dick bastard ass fucker.

So yeah, he like did that thing where he blacks out n falls, he was all fucked up from Sudafed shit and did that, I wasn't paying attn and fuckin almost fell. I did fall though, into a fucking pricker tree fuckin thing, cut my arm up, that shit hurts. Landed on that when I attempted to fly in the chair at KF.

So yeah, EJ was like alright I'm leaving I was like w/e k fine ya know. So he leaves, along w every1 else so I go from having 4 ppl w me to 0. That was depressing haha. Before he left though, he gave me big kisses, ended up on the ground tho =p So then he left. So I came inside, started on my ghettoroni and pepperoni/cheese crackers while I waited for the noodles to cook. Tex calls me talkin shit sayin I was fuckin EJ or some shit and I was like um no he left the same time u did and I came inside n he was like I just fuckin saw him walk by kf and I was like fuck that dude he said he was going home! So yeah Imma have a talk w him about that. I think that he is ashamed of me dude, seriously. Aunt Laura said it's either that or there's another girl. Idk. Everyone says they think he's still fuckin Liz. That'd be the icing on the cake.
Ugh, gross. Headache. Anyways, Eric stopped by, he left earlier bc Tex dragged him outta KF by his jacket cuz he was swearing too much in the store or some shit n bn a dick ever since he fucked Stephanie. So he threw my jacket on the ground n left. He came back to get a hat I told him he could have. I was like dude, now we can have matching hats [well sort of, mine's a pink trucker hat and his is a regular camo one, both w flags, the one he already had didn't have the flag] and I was like ppl will think we're gay together haha. He was like fuck that.

Another thing w the whole EJ shit could be that last night I was all oh ur using me for sex n he said that's how he shows he likes me and maybe if he did the other shit it would mean the same shit in his eyes and I would see it as him tryna get in my pants, which btw I wouldn't >.< I like when he's sweet n gives me kisses. They make the world disappear and make me smile ^_^

I was texting Allie while I was texting Amanda n tellin her about how my friend w benefits won't hold my hand n she was like oh I was gonna ask u something nevermind shit ya know and I was like what were u gonna ask me n she was gonna ask me out but it seems I'm already kinda w someone. I was like I would bc I still have feelings for u but I won't do that bc I know I'd cheat on u w him and I'm not gonna do that to u bc I don't wanna hurt u cuz u've been through enough pain n shit. She understood. She has a special ringer for when I text her [Avril Lavigne-When You're Gone] which I thought was super sweet =]
I cried everytime I saw that video bc it reminded me of Carpet Headed Kid.

I'm fuckin blah, drained right now.
And wheezing. If I eat the ghettoroni, I'll probably hafta go make myself puke. Ryleigh's birthday party's tomorrow. At 4pm. Woo-hoo, that'll be fun =/
I'm not sure I'm gonna enjoy a bunch of fuckin kids n ppl I'm not close to filling my house and being loud n shit. Weather's sposed to be shit.
Rochelle's all freaking out extra hxc about the house being clean to show off to her buddies. Just wait till they live, it'll be trashed and I'm not helping clean that shit up. Not my job. Pookie and I will stay in my room to avoid screaming kids if we have to. Ughhhhhhh I want my snugglebunny nowwwwwwww =[
I keep wheezing. All I've been smoking is bishop lights and marb lights w cut-off filters, a couple Senecas earlier, Marb Smooths, a couple of the new minty Camels, a couple Camel No. 7s, and Newports and it's killing my lungs, those chopped filters and newports. I'm fuckin wheezing all the time n shit. Gah. I need to go watch Viva La Bam and chill.

Bye bye.

Yesterday Bia <3

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 23:21:53 GMT

Mhmm. Let's see. I hung out with my ex-bestie. W00t!
That was fun. And of course his sister, Tara.
Along with Eric, Aaron, Tex, EJ, n Brock.
All the boys kept tryna toss Sean in the dumpster out front haha.
They chased him over and around Kwik Fill n shit. It was quite amusing. So while they were doin that, Tara and I booked out in the fuckin field and crouced down and ran around up there. I got cut twice. Then we got caught bc of her white shirt haha.
Then like right before 9, when Tara's mom picked her n Sean up, EJ showed up. So he walked over to Kwik Fill n I got all whimpery [I always do when he walks away] and I was like where ya goin? So he's like right there I'll b back in a minute.
I'm like ok w/e ya know. So then he goes over, I walked up to Eric n I was like do u think I'm pretty, in a non-sexual not hitting on u kinda way. So he turned his head and laughed and I aws like well I'll take that as a no n he was like eh kinda, ur hair when it's down. Yeah, awesome. So guess how my hair was all night ^_^

Well yeah, EJ and I think he likes me. I feel like a tard saying that though bc I just don't see ppl liking me like that, ya know. But after I asked him that he started acting different, like actually being nice n shit yo. Cuz later, he told EJ that Jamie was pissed cuz he was talkin shit on one of her Sherman homies n so he wanted to go over there cuz he was like wtf I don't even know what a Sherman is. So I was like if u go over there ur not gettin back on this hammock w me bitch, Eric can take ur place. That irritated him haha and before that shit we were all 3 on it w EJ on me and Eric next to me [we need another hammoack haha] and Eric was lookin at me n EJ got all jealous n shit so he put his hand in front of my face so Eric couldn't see. That made me laugh big and I was like bitch I'm not urs. So he and EJ go over there and when they got back Eric got in the hammock with me and then when EJ went to cuz I was like c'mere bby! fuckin Eric put his arm around me and pulled me over towards him n was like no bitch she's mine I cracked the fuck up. He kept callin the hammock the trampoline all night though and we're like dude, HAMMOCK! Not trampoline!

I waxed one of Tara's arms yesterday, too. Just one though, ran outta strips. Which also means, I can't do my legs till I get more, which'll be a while.

Oh, and according to Tex n Eric, I'm a lying bitch. Cuz EJ and I were making out n shit and I was like dude, I'm not fucking him so stfu and have a little faith in me n shit. Well, turns out, I did, twice. But either way, they shouldn't have assumed that I was, lowering my self-esteem n shit. Fuckin assholes. Well not only does Eric come out n call me that, but he also made EJ go flaccid. Real flaccid. So for like a half hour, he was trying n shit and then we finally gave up cuz it wasn't working. Couple hours later, we're at it again, this time, on the ground.. Yeah, my knees were dirty haha. Ick. But then he had me laying flat on my stomach and started fucking me. Yeah, definately better. Didn't last even 5 minutes I bet, but dude, I think I came when he did. It was awesome.
But in between those 2, he siad shit about how I see him as insignificant and all this other bullshit and how when Matt's in the picture he gets tossed aside. I love Matt, I feel terrible when I do shit w EJ behind his back n shit right. But it's EJ. When he's gone I crave to be on my hands n knees for him now and then. It's gross yeah, but w/e. Matt still doesn't know, neither does Amanda. He and I need to have a serious talk, the most serious out of all the ones we've ever had. I told her that n she said that if she sees him she'll tell him. Last time we talked he said it was ok, he doesn't expect me to not be with anyone bc of him, but it's to be expected n Idk if he's gonna hate me for it some day if I keep doin stupid shit. I was doin really good, too. 3 weeks and no fucking him, refusing to even when I was fuckin ripped off my ass. EJ hates Matt bc he knows I'll drop him like a hot tamale for Matt.
Before we fucked the first time, he told me he loved me, and I told him not to say it again.
Then randomly I was like hello sunshine and he was like I love you, too. I laughed I was like wtf I said hello sunshine n he was like oh hah well ya know. Then we were doin Olive you for a while cuz it's cute. Eric came up n I was like Olive You, to EJ and he was like lying bitch n I was like I'm not lying I said olive bitch!
I did get the fucking urge to tell him I loved him like 5 times, but I fought it back n that was really fucking hard to do. Everytime he'd kiss my cheek or my forehead, it made me feel it, but I couldn't say it. I don't do love, I do, a lot, but it doesn't last, I fall in and out a lot. It's a fleeting thing, but it is there. And for a few minutes here and there, I loved him.
The kisses n shit, that's what got to me, not the touching or the dry-humping.

And so yeah, I had a good time last night. Fuckin except when Eric n Tex were bn dicks to EJ, which btw was most of the night, on Eric's part at least. We're all over at Kwik Fill cuz Tex was like u wanna have some fun, to Eric, n they started walking over n I was like dammit no. So I trapsed behind and kept tryna shut ppl the fuck up w their shit talking and drama starting. I fuckin walked off, then walked back, stood there and I'm like fuck you, fuck you, and fuck you then turned and started walking away again.
So Eric comes running over n he's like what's wrong ya know, and I was like I'm sick of this bullshit, none of u can get along for 5 fuckin minutes. So he's tryna calm me down n shit and I'm like nah dude I'm pissed I'm not gonna fuckin hit u or nothin just fuckin ya know. Then later when we were in the hammock they stole one of his shoes n fuckin ran to Kwik Fill w it, so I stormed over ready to whoop some ass. I don't even fuckin remember most of what happened. EJ needs to clip his fuckin toenails tho, I know that much. Omg they like sliced my leg n shit dude. It's so nasty. Cuz we took our shoes off n he didn't have socks while tryna produce heat. It was fuckin cold as ice last night man, fuckin we had a sheet under us to block the air from coming through the hammock holes and a blanket on top to lock in the heat. Didn't work. I ended up passing out for like 10 minutes then having a statled awakening w Eric above my fucking head yellin at EJ to wake up n walk uptown w him. Then I layed there a while longer after they left tryna get warm. Then I thought I heard thunder so I freaked out, jumped up n it was sprinkling so I put my pants on, put my shoes on, untied the sheet fuckin grabbed my pepsi and almost pissed myself, I was like nah dude I gotta go, so I pissed by a tree, then grabbed everything, came inside, talked to Mama, took a shower w the temp like all the way up and still freezing my ass off because of how cold I was. Fuckin big ass Tripp pants that didn't haev the bottoms on and a fuckin t-shirt. Fuck yeah dude, it was 46 degrees in Jamestown last night so Idk aout Mayville, I'm tryna look that shit up right now tho. It was 39 here last night. Fuckin hypothermia much?
Yeah.

Anyways, I'm gonna go grab a hoody n stuffs n go smoke a ciggie because I'm fucking cooooooooold inside.

uouoyu

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 12:15:56 GMT

Right, sooo I slept all damn day, don't even remember much of anything up until my shower. Basically, watched a fuckin movie w Rochelle n Josh n had yummy toast, took a shower, waxed the shit outta my arms. Then it's hazey, then I went to Kwik Fill, talked to Jamie, bought a soda, came back. The next thing I remember is bn outside w Tex n Aaron n Tex talkin to his skank ass girlfriend and there was peanut butter clogging the mic on the housephone. Then she was bn a dumb bitch n pissed him off n he walked off n said he was gonna do somethin stupid, I wasn't about to fuckin chase him so fuck that. Then I dunno, yo that's when I went over n bought my soda, came back and he was still talkin to her bitch ass.
Before my fuckin phone died though, I was talkin to Amanda n shit and she was all pissed that I was calling Stephanie a hoe n shit and I was like nah dude fuckin listen up and I explained in a bitchy manner that she is a fucking slut and I was never tight w the bitch so that's y Tex is still on my property n that bitch isn't allowed to set foot. I've known this motherfucker since 4th grade, I've never even talked to her before I officially started dating Andy and even then it wasn't very often. One of the times I called her a slut fuckin Idk she was in the backround [apparently I was on speaker but w/e] sayin it was only 5 n I was like yeah bullshit cuz the other fuckin night u were tellin me how that's not true n named off fuckin 7 and called her a hoe, too! Then Amanda was like yeah but I said I didn't like saying shit like taht cuz she was my friend. So then I brought shit into it where she wasn't a very good friend tat had nothin to do w that bitch bn a slut. I was like really well what about when u told Erin that she probably could kick her ass n that the bitch can't fight n when she got bitchslapped she just sat there pissed off n almost fuckin cried n shit n that u'd just stand there and watch/laugh wtf about then. She went silent, just like when I brought that she called ehr a hoe shit to Erin into it. I don't have any fuckin shit against amanda, she's determined to make a housewife out of a whore w that bitch. Whatever yo. I don't give a fuck. Fuck taht dirty bitch. Amanda yo fuckin we been tight for 8 years but if it comes to choosing one n she chooses that bitch, Imma fuckin laugh when she screws her over, just like Imma laugh when Steph gets prengnant!
I ain't doggin on Manda though cuz we don't have any beef except that I'm talkin shit on her girl.
Fuck dude. Steph texted me earlier n was like
"Im sry 4 what went on it wont happen again down there
But i dont appreciate u talkin shit n tellin tex things that i nr said I am not playin him i love tex w all my heart"

"Dude i never told him that u said jack shit n to ppl like u, love is a dick in ur pussy n nothin more cuz u dont know what love is"

"C all u know how 2 do is talk shit and thats what love is to u obviously look were ur at w ej i love tex so much"

"U dunt kno shit abou wat tha deal w eric was so stfu when u dk me and u think u do tex and i will work bc we lv each"

"Hah! I told his bitch ass i loed him twice in the 2 months ut at least I can handle bn around him without fucking him"

"Its not just me that wants it its both and we dunt do it everyday im sry ur not italian and fuck good

"Unlike u who right away wanders off to go get her fill of dick. I know well enough that i fu did love him, regardless of what idk, u woulda waited for him instead of goin off n fuckin the 1st dick that u could..
Yeah right dude.
Whenever u c him n ur not at school u do
If ur such a good fuck then yd he hafta go fuck liz to get a nut
Besides that shit, if u loved him, u wouldnt have pinned that shit on him n made shit up"

"It was hes ideay"

"I know that but u fuckin made shit up sayin he said to stop sayin that cuz u were diggin him a hole n shit cuz I was standing next to him teh whole time"

"Yeah, so stop the bullshit slut. I aint tryna start shit, I just dont like u n wanna get shit str8"

"Stop w the drama ur tha slut who fucks ej everytime he comes down there ur pathetic i lv tex n ur jealous he cheated"

"Haha dude i haven't fucked that kid in weeks cuz i dont want that shit.
Its not called grounded when theres courts innvolved. And it is my business when he uses my phone to talk to ur bitch ass n when i hafta watch him cry or whine bc of u"

Dude, fuck that bitch, I haven't fucked him in voer 3 weeks because for one, I'm not dumb enough to do that shit and for two, he's not here, for 3 I have matt to consider highly, 4 don't want it. 5, he's a piece of shit
^^massive disorganization n fucked up shit haha^^

But yeah, I don't fuckin want EJ and I'm not jealous of shit. I hate sluts that lie about being sluts and the number of ppl they've fucked n shit. That, pisses me off. If ur a slut w/e b a slut just admit to the shit when push comes to shove n don't screw my homies over with it.
Even Amanda fucking told Tex that she thinks Steph's gonna screw him over again, that's what he told me after taljking to her like last night or some shit.

Well anywho, away from Skankward Bound....
rikkitty tee...

So yeah, I went outside to smoke a cigarette w Tex n some big bald motha comes over n goes up in Jesses' so I was like yo is that the dude, it was. Cuz I guess they were at Kwik Fill at the same time n he tweaked shit on Tex cuz he was wearin some military uniform and it wasn't ironed or pressed n made the whole shit look sloppy n it's a disgrace n shit. Well tex explained the story to me, then the dude came back out n wants a lighter. So tex let him use his then the dude kinda just stuck around, his name is James by the way and when I was talkin to my gay daddy and referred to him as "Idk, neighbor dude's drunk buddy" he took it offensively a lil bit n I was like well Idk ur name so he told me, it's James.
So he stuck around for a minute yo. Fuckin Idk, I randomly was like I need some fuckin caffeine man I ain't got no money or no sooooda. So he was like well go get some caffeine n I was like I can't, no money no soda. So then idk he was like I'll buy u some and I was like really awesome, I didn't think he would. Then I was like I'm talking to my gay daddy, n he wanted to talk to him. So I handed him the phone n he was like hello sir blah blah blah gonna buy ur daughter some soda cuz I'm a nice guy blah blah blah have a good night sir. When he handed the phoen back Tin started laughing hysterically cuz James thought he really was my dad haha. So then he went to Kwik Fill n bought me 2 Diet Pepsi Maxes and I was stoked. Then Teddy kept fuckin beeping in n shit n I was like yo fuck u, u won't be my boyfriend and u hung up on me the other night I'm not fuckin comin over there. So he beeped in again tellin me to go over, same shit, except he hung up on me the last phoen call and I was yellin fuck u towards kwik fill so he could hear me n shit haha. Well then he came over blah blah blah he went back over, as did Tex, and the dude was like u picked a couple of losers and I'm like wtf I'm not like w them dude haha. Then they came back went inside n shit n he was like wellll I'd hate to make out w u. I was flabebrgasted like wtfh yo. I was like I'm 16. He was like that's ok and laughed then a lil while later was like I'm just kiddin. That freaked me the fuck out. Because I'm not attracted to him in any way ya know. I guess when he bought my sodas he's was talkin to Jamie n was like well since ur not old enough to drink u wanna go out to dinner some time so she made up a bf tthat makes her very happy haha. When I was talkin to Tin while Tex n T-hoe were at Kwik Fill, James Dude asked me if I was a lesbian haha. I didn't even act gay at the time or mention anything about being gay. It was funny.
Then I had way too much shit goin on 4 him, what with making my soda flat, tex n teddy bn here, ppl beeping in on my phone and talking to Tin. I'm a multitasker man. Gotta be able to keep up wit meh.

And then earlier, I don't remember if ti was before the drunken encounter or after but Rochelle came downstairs tweaking the fuck out about milk being gone. Tex doesn't drink it and I had soda so wtf. Apparently, it'd been gone since before my mother went to work n she fuckin told her it was almost gone before she left so the bitch fuckin stormed down here calling me a piece of shit and whatnot when I didn't touch the fuckin milk. Fuck that. That pissed me right the fuck off. So now, when she finds out I eated her fuckin Poppers thingies, she can suck my dick bc I didn't touch the milk n she tweaked out n I'll bust the bull daggin ass bitch in the nugget fer sure. Actually, I probably won't. I fight dirty, and besides, I won't do shit unless i get hit first, just my nature.
But yeah, then fuckin it was me tex n teddy and we were all chillin upstairs, they smoked a couple owls or w/e then me n teddy were layin on the bed n tex fucked w the strobe light n ya know we're just chillin n shit and teddy had his hand between muh legs n shit byut it wasn't in a sexual manner, just the way he sprawled out n shit so I didn't think nothin of it. Well then he moved it like a cm or some shit and like all my muscles tightened like eep. Then he was like what're u tweakin for rissa and I was like no reason. So he'd start fuckin w me n b like why u tweakin huh. Well then, fuckin, he started rubbing up n down my thighs n shit n all that jazz. Never actually touched my vajayjay tho cuz the stupid jeans were in the way [the east side crips ones, the crotch on them is weird and like u can't touch mine at all bc of it so it's pretty much a chastity belt haha] and so yeah, did that for like a half hour or more. Then I checked the time, then I took a piss, then I came back n the bitch took my spot. Then I broke out my MP3 player n we jammed. Well, I chilled n he rapped n remixed haha. Then he left at 6:10 then came back w Jamie n shit. Apparently she called like twice n tex took my fuckin phone n shit to call him grandma n then fuckin told jamie we were sleeping ro some shit. wtf no we weren't. Apparently, he still loves Jenny, he hates her n she pisses him off but a lil bit he still loves her cuz he lived w her n shit. So yeah, then after chillin n bullshittin for a while, me n her started texting n shit about Teddy n I told her what happened, in way less detail though, basically it was like yo Idk about teddy sometimes man he like fucks w my head n shit he was rubbing my thighs n shit earlier. So she was like well do u like him or no n I was like I used to n I still do a lil bit but it wouldnt matter anyway ya know so at one point she said to get drunk n tell him haha so if it doesn't pan out, heeey I was drunk haha.
He got all pissy n shit that we were texting about him n shit. So then they left, Idk if he's gonna check her texts or she'll tell him but idk.

Before that shit though, but after James left, before we came inside, I was like teddy be my fuckin bf. just say yes n I'll leave u alone about it. The whole point is to make him concede haha. Then he was like no cuz then u'll b thinkin we're datin n shit and I was like no I'm not a psycho liek that I just want u to cave n shit. So he was like alright so then I was like be my boyfriend n he was like ok took a step towards me n said we're broken up. Funny fucker.

So yeah fuckin Texas' bitch ass is passed out on the couch, Rochelle will wake him up when she gets down here. He has a parent teacher conference thing today at school w his grandma. He skipped school. Fuckin idiot. He "doesn't feel good" Lazy bastard, maybe it's bc u were up all night n then passed out on the couch. Yeah, Bonnie's gonna love this.

Stephanie's just pissed that I still let Tex b here and I don't want her skank ass here. Guess what bitch, he fucked 2 ppl, u fucked at elast 7 that we know of, so there. I've never been close to u, he moved his ass in twice now. I don't like u, I mildly get along with him. I think she has like this warped idea about everything going on with this. Like I talk mad shit about her n she's not allowed here but I'm a sweetyheart to him n he can b here as long as he wants or some shit. Not even close, I constantly bitch at him for everything and I'm constantly talkin shit to him about fucking in my hammock n bein a grimey ass bitch.
And when she was taljkin to himm the other ngihte, I heard her say soemthing about why would he flip out on EJ for hugging me if he didn't care about me.
Of course he fucking cares about me ya dumb bitch, we've been friends for like 4 years n shit and known each other for 8. It's not romantic on either end. He knew EJ would hurt me again if I let him hug me cuz a hug leads to a kiss, etc etc. But fuck his double standard shit where EJ can't hurt me but Steph can fuck him over and everyone tells him she will.
They were talking when he was in my room and idk what the fuck was going on, can't remember, but I yelled in the background something about yeah we were friends before u fucked him bitch

I don't even fuckin care anymore dude.
Fuck that skank ass bitch faced hoe n her bullshit.
I'm not gonna fuckin be here when she fucks him over again. Imma just be like dude tex fuck u I told u this would happen n u didn't fuckin lsisten and ur never gonna learn so fuck u.

cnxcnxc

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 02:51:58 GMT

Beforehand, let me say, I put fake ass nails on today soooo I can't type properly so fuck the typos.
Anyway, alright so basically I haven't blogged in forever. Well lets see, Tex pretty much moved in over 2 wks ago. At first it was whatever, but then he started gettin on my last damn nerve.
But yeah, he ew. Fuckin I went to grab my jeans to throw 'em in the wash and his clothes were piled on top and I started gagging. They smelled so fuckin nasty i used that fuckin Purell shit to clean 'em. I did my laundry, my bedding and told him to keep his smelly ass outta my bed and his nasty clothes in bags. His grandma took them home later that day and him too to get hyis hair cut, whoo-hoo he showered for the first time in 5 days. That's like not even an exaggeration, he took like 5, maybe 6 [at the most] showers in the last fuckin 20 days. He shaved is mustache off the other day. Turns out, he doesn't look much better without ti, juust less old and scummbagerish.
Well anywho, he's mostly been pissing me off because he doesn't listen, not like a bitch listen just listening in general. I tell him to leave Pookie the fuck alonje [bc he's scared shitless of him] and he fucks with him anyway. Tonight, was the last fuckin straw!
Dude, fuck them
They fucked in my fuckin hammock!
We were walking out front [me, Amanda, Jeff n Brock] and they were up there n she was like don't come up here and I was like dude fuck that so we all go up there n they were fucking. I was pissed. I told 'em to get the fuck off my property. Let me fuckin catch 'em doin anything on my property and I'll whoop both them bitches.
Then she told Amanda, after they left, that it was his idea [which it was though] bc he didn't wanna go in the weeds and get wet [cuz he's always on bottom] and that it was ok because EJ & I did [which we never fuckin did shit up there!] and that when they were on the ground in front of Amanda's car that he and I never did. He says she's full of shit and just tryna get her ass outta trouble n pin it all on him. Yeah, what a great person. I don't care, either fuckin way I tweaked out last time they fucked on my property n shit and they both fuckin knew better.
Then when they were in front of Amanda's car, I grabbed a bottle of bleach got Amanda went up there and doused that shit and I was like mmmm this bleach smells better than that bitch's pussy n yellin a buncha shit.
When I had Amanda call my house [my cell died] and was conveying shit he talked to her and told her he loved her like 4 times and I was like wtfever ur both idiots. To her, love is a cock between her legs and to him it's if u don't beat him. They're fuckin retarded, u can't love someone and try to fuck 'em over like that by pinning shit on them and he's the dipshit believing it and he still hasn't gone to court n shit for her from when they were together last time. I hope u kick her ass and that Gabe kicks his.
Before that though, I was like yeah ya know what I'm gonna laugh when she gets pregnant and ur both fucked. Stupid ass bitches.
Yeah, before any of this shit, the other night alright fuckin Stephanie was w Gabe. Take it back further. She was w Tex then added Eric, then added Gabe and then dumped Eric then [she cheated on everyone btw] fuckin went to Jamestown w Amanda the other night and took Tex w her and fucked him in Amanda's car [she flipped shit about that] then like she wasn't gonna tell Gabe about fuckin Tex, so Amanda did. Then like a couple night ago Gabe was in Westfield, he's back w Ashley, and a bunch of ppl were starting shit. Stephanie got bitchslapped by some bitch and just sat in the fuckin car beat red pissed off, and also almost crying, fuck that, u jump out n beat a bitch n if she runs u chase her. But I dunno, not my shit to deal with. Well fuckin yeah, drama. That was like last night orsome shit. That was th night I kept fuckin w Teddy's ass haha. I was like, "Theodore!"
"What?"
"Be my boyfriend."
"Why are u asking me this?!"
"I'm not asking bitch, I'm telling"
That lasted like a half hour haha. Kristin was laughing and she was like he won't be my boyfriend either. We had a laugh n yeah. I don't really want him though, I just knew it'd fuck w his head. He prolly knows I'm just jokin anyways.
Later last night Tex was hangin out w Dustin Barrett n then he passed out in the car so he and I just bullshitted for a couple hours havin a few laughs n shit about his bitch ass brother. I just found his myspace and he's got like fuckin pictures or some shit and only 2 r just him the other 3 have his nasty ass gf in 'em.
A night or 2 before that I hung out w like 20 fuckin ppl at Kwik Fill. It's cuz Tex went over to get high n made me tag along, which is fine cuz I had fun. Well anyway, we get over there, Dustin Taves when passed out on the bench, big pile of puke all over. So we chilled w Jed's sister, some Ashley chick, and Casey fuckin Monroe. His teeth r fucked up, but he's still hott, hotter back when I was 10 but w/e.
So it was them, me, Gabe, Tex and EJ. Well fuckin Vicky swung by w a few ppl and Jed and Mike Ralph n we fuckin chilled. Before they came though we went across the street to tnhe dock stack for a bit, came lookin for Dustin n he was gone, he schimmied his way behidn the store to be inconspicous n then managed to end up here. Apparently his shitfaced ass went n crawled in rochelle's bed, she thought it was Patches and took his pants off and put pj pants on him and ten he was like thanks fro takin my pants off n she realized it wasn't him, tey came downstiars, he got on the couch n passed out n josh found out n threw a bitchfit so he stopped by kwikfill shitfaced and told em to tell dustinw when he woke up that patches was gonna kick his ass n I was like well w/e ur a faggot. then Casey's phone went missing n they went apeshit. They were like alright, it 's between EJ n Tex, one of them's got it. Jed came n fuckin choked Tex and was gonna kick both their asses if it didn't come up but they fuckin found it like a half hour to an hour later over by the benches where Casey took a piss.
I don't really remember much more of the night except that when we were across the street Gabe made me take a stroll down memory lane w him about takin a picture of his dick back when I lost my v-card to him and some stupid thing I said that day and it was a good laugh for us.

Amanda n Joey n Steph came down the other night and Tex n Steph fucked out in the field n shit and we were all like w/e ya know it's off the property n shit. Well Joey told me that EJ was fuckin Liz when he was w Amanda and me. So when EJ came here earlier, I walked out there stood next to him a minute, when he turned towards me I fuckin bitchslapped him and I was like that's for not coming back the other night when u said u would and skipping town instead and bc I heard u were still fucking Liz! He said he was only gone the one night and that he's not still fuckin her and that's bullshit. Joey's locked up now bc hhis warrant caught up w him, Amanda turned him in, but he doesn't know that acuz she didn't tell him yet bc she's scared he'll never b w her again if she does. He threatened to smash a plate over her head, she said he was joking, but her sister convinced her to do it anyway.
I kicked Jeff Smith's ass earlier haha. We're horsing around now as if I'm one of the guys. He kicked me in the face by accideent when he was wrestling around w Brock for like 2 hours. Earlier we beat each other with fuckin tiki torches. Brock was like 3 hits and u win, if she wins I get a free hit on ur leg, cuz Jeff randomly hit him cuz he tossed another torch to me cuz I was sooo losing ande that was interferencce. So I fuckin thwacked him aiming for his knee[s] missed and got both his nuts and some of the broken shit went in his eye I guess. I didn't know tho so whiloe he was down I beat him like 3 more time to make my glory infinate haha. I walked away, walked back and whacked his ass w my stick haha. It was fun shit though, then Brock didn't cuz I worked him over pretty well. So yeah, then they were all tryna smoke n shit n it started raining and let me tell u, that was some amusingn shit, watchin them try to use a busted ass umbrella n shit.
I hung out w my homo daddy, Tin! He went back in time and donated jis sperm so I'm his sperm child and he's my gay dad that's dating my ex. Let me tell u, crazy shit. I was goin through his pix tryn find the one I just took, annnnnnnd I found 2 of Andy's penis, kinda grossed me out a bit. None of his or Andy's on Andy's phone tho. So he and I were by the back of his car painting our phone w glow-in-teh-dark nailpolish and his looked like a clown threw up on it. Mine's pretty.
I haven't talked to Matty in ages. I texted w Amanda earluier though, turns out she just got a cheque for 18 grand and I was like for what n turns out she's a trust fund kid, never knew that. So I was lkike well get ur passport n ur bf n come see me haha. I really want her to, she's awesome. Regardless of whether Matty came or not ^_^
That'd be pretty grand if he did tho =D

And yeah, when I was at Kwik Fill last night w Tex n Tara before i hung out w Dustin, I organized all the solid colored bics by alphabetical order of color. Then she and I did all the steelers and bills ones. OCD much?

I hate hangin out w EJ w other ppl around bc he totally ignores me. When it's just me n him, eh's kind of a douche but at leat he pays attention. I gave him like 2 or 3 hugs earlier when he left and he didn't hold on a few seconds too long or bite me or anything. Kinda diappointing ya know. He plays head games and I like Matty better so that's fine ^_^

Tex's grandparents came n took my crown vic to Westfielod to old neighbor dudes' to get fixed

Anywho, fuckin I'll think of more shit later, Imma go smoke fuckin mccigarette.